Friday, January 25, 2013

Nellie

This is a piece I started writing some time ago, but forgot about till last night when I finished it at 1:30 in the morning. I warn you, it's a long one, and might get kinda boring there towards the end, but I really wanted to post it and share my part in the story of one amazing truck. I think it's worth the read. I hope you enjoy reading these stories as much as I did living them (or maybe not at the time, but I enjoy remembering them now). Cheers!


Tonight, as oftentimes happens these days, I started thinking about Nellie. I was sitting in the Meijer parking lot and suddenly memory after memory of my adventures in Nellie came flooding back to me. I was laughing out loud at the memories of my days with Nellie. She was a good truck, faithful to the end. This is a long overdue tribute to the truck that I despised on sight, then grew to love like a best friend.

Nellie was my truck, my first car, my first taste of teenaged freedom. And Nellie was very… unique. She was practically given to me by an elderly man from church. Fixing cars was a hobby of his since he was very young, and he knew my sixteenth birthday was coming up. I was sort of like a surrogate granddaughter to him and his wife (his wife died a few years before this time), so he wanted to find a car to fix up for me. He asked what kind of car I wanted and I told him a truck. He raised his eyebrows in surprise and said, “A truck, huh?” but didn’t try to talk me out of it. I’ll forever be thankful for that. Then he asked what color I wanted. Of course I told him blue.

A week later he told me he’d found a blue truck for me that he was working on. Soon after that, it was parked in our driveway, where it would sit for nearly a year (I kept putting off getting my license). And as I mentioned before, I hated that truck at first sight. It was a ’94 GMC Sonoma. As in… old, beat up, and boxy. The right side view mirror was actually the mirror of a much smaller car, and had been taped (yes, taped) onto the frame of the truck’s missing mirror. But perhaps worst of all was the color. I cringed every time I saw it. It was blue alright. Bright, BRIGHT neon blue. I felt like I should be handing out sunglasses to everyone that saw it.

I spent the year between getting the truck and getting my license mentally preparing myself and resigning to the fact that this would be my mode of transportation for an indefinite amount of time. Everyone who knew of my distaste for this blinding blue… thing comforted me by saying, “Well, it’ll make you appreciate the car you have after this one dies.” I hoped it was a swift and painful death.
There was much joy on finally getting my license at age 17, but it was with a heavy heart that I began driving the long-dormant truck. Little did I know, I would have some real adventures with it. And I would grow to love it.

I knew its name right away. Nellie. Nellie was the wife’s name of the man who fixed up the truck for me. She was old and gentle in my memory, much like this truck I now found myself the owner of. So Nellie and I began our life together. It was a loud beginning.

Probably my earliest memory of Nellie (well, from the time I started driving her) was the first time I started her. Nellie was LOUD. She roared everywhere she went and I blushed and tried to ignore the turning heads. My friend Jessica and I (she drove a real beater too) learned the art of playing it off like we wanted it to be that loud. You know how we do. But really… I was the girl sitting in the parking lot till it had mostly cleared of people so no one would hear me roar to life. Yes. Yes I did.

I think it was the second or third time I had ever driven Nellie that I went to a school soccer game with my friend Petra. This was one of those occasions where I waited till the parking lot was empty to start my truck. As a side note, I also parked way in the back lot so no one would see my pathetic taped-on mirror. Anyway, as luck would have it, Petra ended up staying really late hanging out in the parking lot talking to Donovan, so I at least had an excuse to wait so long. It was also really good Donovan was there. I’d never driven Nellie at night before and I didn’t know how to turn my lights on. (I know, I know… That’s really pathetic). Turns out there was a strange gray block to the left of the steering wheel that flips. So thank you, Donovan, for teaching me how to turn my lights on.

For the record, both my headlights worked great. But my taillights didn’t. There was a wiring issue that had to be resolved in order for them to work. And in messing with those wires, something got messed with relating to my horn. So then only the left half of the center of the steering wheel honked. You could pound the right half all day long and it wouldn’t make a sound, but if you just brushed the left half, Nellie gave a mighty honk.

I started driving Nellie in late August. It took about two seconds to realize the air conditioning didn’t work. So I went everywhere with the windows down. I quickly learned to have deodorant and a brush in my bag at all times. It was a sweaty, windblown experience every time I got behind the wheel. More than once I almost wrecked when a bee came flying into my window and hit me in the head. It was sweet relief when the weather turned colder and I could drive with the windows up. My heater worked great!

For the first four or so months that I had my license, I prided myself on my bad parking jobs. I don’t know why, but I had absolutely no regard for the white lines painted on the ground giving my truck a temporary home. I especially liked pulling into the nearly-empty school parking lot for band practice and parking diagonally across two or three spaces at once. I like to think Nellie liked it, too. I think she felt like she was on display. By this point in time, I’d learned to embrace her loud color and engine, and let her be what she was. Love comes softly, you know? I’m sure it helped that my dear friend Erika told me she saw me driving one day, and seeing me behind the wheel… It just looked right. The color was cute with me, she said. I will forever be grateful for that compliment. It lessened my hatred.

It was my senior year of high school, but I had chosen to take college courses at UC Clermont instead of going to the high school. As a result, I spent a lot of time alone. In fact, I spent a lot of time in my truck. It was a thirty minute commute to school, where I also worked, and I often ate lunch in there, too. I think so much time alone got me a little on the depressed side. Nellie was there to absorb my secret tears. I think that’s when I really started to love the ol’ girl. She became my refuge at times. I could always count on Nellie to be my obnoxiously loud, very dependable friend. She heard many private conversations with friends, but always kept our secrets.

Somewhere in the middle of winter, my blinker stopped working. It was the strangest thing! I’d push down the blinker handle thingy and it would click, but the light would just stay lit. It wouldn’t blink! So I had to manually blink. No, I didn’t point out the window. I manually clicked that handle up and down, up and down, until I’d turned, or changed lanes. I did this for MONTHS people. And then it just randomly started working again! I called my mom I was so excited! That lasted about a day, and then it quit again. Back to manual blinking. I just smiled and shook my head. Oh, Nellie…

I had my first accident in Nellie. I was at UC, and I’d gone to get my lunch out of my truck between classes, when I noticed there was a parking spot open on the other side of the aisle where I was parked. It was almost a game with me to get the best parking spot possible at all times. So even though I was going to spend more time starting my truck, driving all the way down the aisle and back up the other side, saving myself about five steps walking time, that’s exactly what I did. Yes. This was what I did for fun back then. I think it’s safe to say my life was kind of pathetic. The most pathetic part of all is that I was positively giddy at the prospect of a better parking spot! So giddy, in fact, that I looked both ways before pulling out of my aisle and didn’t see the Jeep coming right by, and promptly pulled out and demolished his driver’s side door with a huge grin on my face. Yes. It happened just like that. The best part of all is that a campus police officer was right behind the guy and saw the whole thing. (I had absolutely no case whatsoever). Turns out the guy I hit was the professor down the hall from my Psych class that I walked past every single day. And the very next day as I walked past (hiding my face as much as possible), I heard him telling another professor about the girl that just plowed out and hit him yesterday. I’m sorry, I couldn’t help but laugh then, and I’m CRACKING UP right now. I’d like to add that my Nellie was completely unscathed by the interaction, and left a beautiful blue streak along with the dent on his car. ‘Atta girl! She’s a brick house!

Spring time came, and my mood lifted. The warm weather returned and it was back to my old windows-down-all-the-time-so-you-better-have-deoderant-and-a-hairbrush-handy trick. There was one particularly fine day I remember when I had yet another embarrassing, unwanted, yet highly memorable adventure with Nellie.

I’d pulled out of my driveway, Nellie was her usual loud self, though I thought maybe a little louder than normal. But she seemed to be running fine, so no worries. I got about halfway to school when her decibel output suddenly increased significantly. I was very concerned. I had no idea what to do, but I knew something was definitely wrong. I just kept driving, of course, and listened with increasing panic as Nellie got louder and louder. Instincts told me to watch my rearview mirror. Wouldn’t you know it… As I’m coasting down one long, curving hill, something big and red falls out of the bottom of my truck, and bounces and rolls off the side of the road. Nellie was instantly roaring louder than anything I could compare her too. My mouth gaped open in shock and I just stared at my rearview mirror like, “What just happened?!” But I was going to be late for class if I didn’t keep going, so that’s what I did. And I left it there on the way home. I didn’t want to stop and try to retrieve whatever it was… How humiliating! I told Dad about it the next day, and he told me I needed to get the part, probably my muffler.

So the next day, when I got to the bottom of the hill, I pulled into the vet clinic conveniently and bizarrely stationed there (there’s nothing else around, except the fancy wedding place across the street) and parked. I sat a moment gathering my courage, then began my journey up Mt. Humiliation. It was a farther walk than I’d imagined. There was a bit of field I had to cross before reaching the bottom of the hill, and then I had just the shoulder to walk on. In other words, this little salmon was extremely easy to see trying to swim upstream. And see they did. Probably four or five cars honked and hollered at me while I made my ascension and again descended with the muffler. Unfortunately, these were not angry drivers telling me to grow a brain and get off the road. They were teenaged guys being teenaged guys, honking at a girl. It. Was. Mortifying. But I held my head high, and went on my merry way. Nellie was fixed soon after.

For months before her end, Nellie started this new trick where she wouldn’t start on the first try. I’d turn the key in the ignition, and an angry grinding sound would meet me. Usually by the fourth try, she would come alive. But not always. I was way past being embarrassed by any of her unique features by this time, so all the looks in the parking lot were lost on me. However, it made dramatic exits nearly impossible. This was only a problem when I was running late, or when I was assaulted by a guy trying to sell me his rap CD in the McDonald’s parking lot. Yes. That happened.

Allie Mitchell was in town, so we were hanging out and decided to get some smoothies from McDonald’s (I love their wild berry flavor!). It was dark out as we walked back to Nellie with our delicious purchases, and I noticed a young man trying to sell a CD to a girl in her car a few spaces over. I immediately began praying this would be one of those rare moments when Nellie would start first try and we could make our departure in peace. Well, that didn’t happen. Not only did she not start the first time, she didn’t start the second, or third, or fourth, or fifth, or sixth… I’m not even exaggerating. And of course the guy was at my window after the first try.

It was an extremely awkward conversation for the next five minutes. He tried very hard to get us to give him five bucks for the CD he’d recorded. Allie was freaking out, and I’m pretty sure she was discreetly searching the cab for a knife or a gun to use on the guy if he tried to pull anything on us. While she was doing that, I was madly trying to get Nellie to start while trying to get the guy to disappear. He pointed out very kindly to me that my truck wouldn’t start. Thank you, Captain Obvious. He said it wouldn’t start because I wouldn’t buy his CD. I said, “Why don’t you give us a rap about my truck then? Let’s see how good you are.” So he started rapping. Something about Elizabeth and Allie in the ‘Nati and my truck is blue. Yeah, he rhymed “Allie” with “’Nati” (as in Cincinnati). Wonder of wonders, she started!! I immediately pulled away and ignored his remark that I owed him for getting Nellie to start. Whatevs. I found the whole thing slightly unnerving, and very hilarious, but poor Allie had been legitimately fearing for our lives.

This is where the story gets sad. Nellie began getting sick. My beloved truck just didn’t have it in her anymore. School started again that September, and this year I was going downtown to UC’s main campus. But before we get to the sad stuff, I have just one more memory of my adventures with Nellie. It was the very first week of class. I was still working at the Clermont College branch of UC, and had to go from the main campus out there to work. Well, I was on my way there for the first time, had no idea how to get there, and decided I needed to turn around. I pulled into a parking lot, but I guess I misjudged the turn. I ramped the curb with my back right tire pretty hard.

That’s when the thumping started. I pulled out of the parking lot, my brow furrowed in concern yet again by some new noise coming from Nellie. The thumping got worse, then leveled off at awful. The whole truck was swaying with the thump. I made it just up the hill, and decided I should probably take a look at whatever happened, so I pulled into the nearest neighborhood street. I got out and examined the tire, flat as a pancake. I looked around me and realized… I was in the hood. This is the part of the story where I exclaim an extremely justified,

WHY ME???

I quickly got back in the cab, locked the doors, and called my Dad. Dad told me to call Philip, who might be on campus nearby. I got Philip on the phone, who said he’d come find me, and where was I exactly? I don’t know……… Good luck, big brother!

So I waited, and waited, and waited. I watched little children get dropped off. I watched a guy saunter around the corner and come back about fifteen minutes later with a brown bag bulging with something. I soon found out it was a couple of subs, which I tried not to watch him eat. An elderly woman came out of the house I was parked in front of and asked if I needed help. I told her no, my brother was coming. Finally, he showed up, and gave me a Changing Your Tire 101 lesson. The whole thing was watched by a group of unsavory looking characters down the street. I was so glad I had a spare tire, and Philip had the necessary tools. I was back in business minutes later!

Now. Back to the beginning of the end.

Nellie lasted just two weeks on my highway commute to school. In that second week, she overheated on my way to school. This was something I’d never encountered before. My Dad wasn’t in town, so of course I called the next logical person: Etienne. Because my boyfriend who is 800 miles away will really be able to help me out with an overheating truck. (You’ll have to excuse me. I was young and in love. Still am). But anyway, he gave me possible reasons it could be behaving that way (there was something else happening, too, but I don’t remember what). I told my parents about it later, and they told me to just take it easy, we’d start looking for another car (there was just no denying she was on a downward spiral). My mom suggested if it started overheating again to turn on the heater. Some of you may scoff at that, but I had to do it multiple times, and it did work. Nearly burned my feet to crisps, though, with the air right on them.

Eventually Nellie wouldn’t go over 35 mph. I didn’t know what to do. I knew every time I started her might be my last. I did what any girl would do in my situation. I called up my photographer best friend Trish and said, “Can I have a photo shoot with Nellie before she dies?” Being the person she is, Trish loved the idea. We went to Stonelick Lake the next day. Those last few days were probably my most exciting with Nellie. Adrenaline was pumping the entire time. You just never knew when she was gonna go. I drove a nerve-wracking 35 all the way to Stonelick. We took some shots with her parked tailgate to the boat ramp, on a slope.

We decided to leave and take some shots by a field, too, but Nellie wouldn’t start. Not only that, but if I took my foot off the brake, she started rolling toward the lake. I was panicking! I had visions of my truck sinking to the bottom of Stonelick Lake, making headlines all across Goshen. What to do, what to do?? I just kept trying to start her, but it seemed she was really gone this time. Trish and I just stared at each other horrified. To make matters worse, there were some guys waiting to use the boat ramp. I was so embarrassed and considered asking them to push her up the hill. That seemed too cruel to ask of anyone, though. “Hey, can you push my 3 ton truck up this hill for me? Thanks.” Yeah right.

I’m sure it was by the grace of God that she finally started just one more time. I inched my way up the hill ever so gently, inched across the parking lot, crawled out onto the road… I didn’t dare stop at any of the stop signs, I confess. I just didn’t know if I’d get rolling again. And then it happened. She gave it all she had, but that was it. She cut off, and I was stuck there in the middle of the road. There was a convenient little access patch to a field on my left. If I could just get over there somehow!

You’ve probably guessed what comes next. Yes. I asked my friend who was doing this shoot as a favor to me to push my truck over into that field. And ya know what? She did. And then I called my mom, who reminded me that she’d warned me it wasn’t safe to take Nellie out anymore. So then I called my Dad, and he said to leave the truck and ride home with Trish. But Trish and I looked around and realized the sun was perfect and we were in a field, just like we wanted! So being the intelligent beings we are, we took advantage of our good fortune and got those “field shots”.

And I got to have one last awkward, terrifying, yet always memorable adventure with Nellie. While I was standing in the bed of my truck posing, a man in a beat up white work truck slows to a stop, and starts talking to us. He told me how good I looked and asked my name and my age, and I officially freaked out. I gave him my first name, but not my last. Looking back I should have said, “It’s none of your business creep, leave me alone!” But nothing like that had ever happened to me before, and I was flustered. But kids, don’t talk to strangers. Thankfully, he left, but it took several minutes, and I was legitimately afraid. Trish and I beat it out of there as quickly as possible after that. It was a very tense, quiet ride home.

Nellie was towed home later by a bigger pickup, thanks to Brian Burns. She was parked in the same spot she was parked in for that year before I got my license, never to be driven again. It broke my heart to see her out there. Dad found me a new car within the week. I felt like such a traitor pulling up in my new Toyota Corolla (much more practical, but it’s no truck) and parking next to Nellie. It really was hard for me. Dad told me to clean her out, and Nellie was sold to one of James’ friends. I never saw her again.

I was truly upset by the loss of my beloved truck and friend, Nellie. But I had to admit, my new car was a lot better… It actually ran smoothly, it was quiet, it saved me a lot in gas money, and I never had to worry if it was going to leave me stranded somewhere. I was driving it trying to think of what to name it when that occurred to me. I never had to worry with this car. That reminded me of Hakuna Matata. Should I call it Hakuna? No… Matata? No… It’s just not right separated that way. Wait! TIMON! I’ll call it Timon! A more fitting name I couldn’t have chosen. It’s small and tan, just like Timon, and it gives me no worries. Granted, that was two years ago… Now it’s giving me worries. But it’s still Timon. After I named it, we started getting along really well.

Still, he’s not Nellie. I will always remember that obnoxious roar of hers; how she always had some new surprise in store for me; how I got into all sorts of scrapes with her. How I grew up with her. She witnessed some great moments of my life, and I’m so glad I owned her for that brief time. I know it’s weird, but I truly loved that truck. I’d drive her today if I could get her back, even with all her imperfections. To me, she was perfect.








Wednesday, January 2, 2013

New Life Resolutions

Happy New Year everyone! It's day 2 of 2013, and may I just say this year is off to a GREAT start! Etienne and I were at the OKC New Year's Meeting, where we had the pleasure of seeing the entire Burns/Landreman family and the Middick family, as well as many other friends and loved ones. It was a great meeting, very encouraging to me. Yesterday, Etienne and I slept in till eleven, then sat on the couch in our bathrobes for several hours. Out of nowhere and quite suddenly, he jumped off the couch and said, "Let's go for a run!" My body had already decided it was just going to be lazy all day, but a run actually sounded like a good idea. So we took a jog around the neighborhood, 0.6 miles.

Let me just say... a semester plus of eating whatever I wanted, meaning lots of sweets, and no exercise has definitely caught up with me. Mercy. A measley half a mile and I was ready for a breather! So we waited a little while in the house, then took another lap, so we ran a total of 1.2 miles. I use the term "run" loosely. It was faster than a walk, but certainly not anything record-breaking. Anyway, this sort of brings me to the point of this letter.

My New Life Resolutions.

Most people make New Year Resolutions, and that's great, but I want any change I make in my life to be lasting. So I prefer to think of it as a New Life Resolution. Etienne and I had a family meeting a few weeks ago determining our goals for next semester, things we want to work on in every aspect of our lives, and several of those things have become my New Life Resolutions.

Here they are, in no particular order...

1. Run at least one lap around the neighborhood everyday. I had decided I would run at least three times a week at the family meeting, because I wanted to set a goal I knew I could achieve even when laziness and lack of motivation is factored in. But Etienne encouraged me yesterday to go with one lap everyday, and since it's not a huge time commitment by any means, I agreed. It'll just be a matter of doing. I'm completely capable, and I do have enough time in the day. I just have to do it.

2. I want to lose weight, and keep it off. I know you're probably all thinking "You don't need to lose weight!" and you're right, according to the BMI chart. But I know weight gain is a slippery slope, and I need to start being responsible about it now instead of waiting till it's a real problem. I have gained unnecessary pounds since the summer, and I don't like it. Even though my weight is technically normal, I know my body fat percentage is not. That's what I want to change. So, my goal is to lose five pounds by March 1st. This really won't be hard to do if I keep up with exercising and just cut back on sweets and junk food.

3. A few weeks ago, just after that family meeting I mentioned, I wrote a letter on this blog talking about a challenge I was setting for myself. I call it the Proverbs 31 Challenge. I was feeling "moody" at the time of publication, and facebook wasn't showing it as being posted, so I just deleted it entirely in frustration. I'm still not sure why. But, what I said in that letter still stands. Let me reiterate now.

I'm willing to bet most, if not all, Christian women have heard of the Virtuous Woman talked about in Proverbs 31, and read it for themselves. I thought this was a famous passage that most men knew about too, but I have since learned I am wrong about that, which disappoints me. It seems like this passage should be important to men too, since it's a mother telling her son what kind of wife he should be looking for. Anyway, I have had a couple people I love dearly tell me that the woman described in these verses is "unattainable" and an "impossible standard." I'm sorry, but I just don't agree. When I read those verses, I don't see a impossible standard; I see a woman who, when you get right down to it, is just a good person and a hard worker in everything she does. What's so unattainable about that?

In thinking about that, I decided I wanted to do what I call a Proverbs 31 Challenge. These are specific ways a woman can hone a virtuous character, ways God has detailed. He's given us a road map to virtuosity! I want to be a virtuous woman in God's eyes. I want to be a wife to Etienne whose worth is far above rubies. So, my plan is to read Proverbs 31, the verses about the virtuous woman, and go verse by verse mastering each character trait until it is a fixed part of me. Obviously I'm not going to take each verse literally (I won't be searching for wool and flax), but I think there is a principle in each verse that can be taken and applied, a pearl of wisdom whose value cannot be priced. I want to examine a verse at a time, discover its meaning for me today, and work at it till I've mastered it, then move on to the next verse. There's no time limit on this; it's a life transformation, and I'll work till I succeed. I'm sure I'll need to constantly be reminding myself of all the virtues I might think I've mastered throughout the whole course of my life.

So that's my Challenge in a nutshell. If anyone would like to join me in this challenge, please let me know! I'd love to have someone I could study this with, who goes through the same challenges with me, and someone to be accountable to.

4. I want to start writing a book. I've had three different ideas floating around in my head for literally five or six years, if not longer, but I've never set pen to paper on any of them. In fact, it's taken me so long to work up the courage to try that I won't even be using pen and paper anymore! But last night, Etienne was reading a book, and I had nothing else pressing to tend to, so I told him I was going to start writing a book, and left the room. He immediately stopped reading and called after me, "Wait! Wait! That's awesome! Are you for real? Come back here and tell me your idea! What are you writing about?"

Honestly, I was blown away by his intense interest and support of me writing a book. I never expected such a response, such genuine enthusiasm for it, but it was wonderful! As time goes by and more life experiences come at me, I become ever increasingly aware of how important it is to have family. A family who loves you and gives you support and encouragement in all you do is truly priceless. I'm thankful Etienne is that way for me. I'm thankful looking back at all the years my parents were that way for me. Where would I be if they had not always encouraged me to be better than I am, and believed that I am better than I am?

The New Year holiday is a particularly emotional one. We say goodbye to another year and all the experiences therein become solidified as mere memories. Perhaps something extremely significant happened that year, and giving a definitive end to the year gives more of a definitive end to worrying or focusing on  whatever it was that changed your life. It forces us to realize time goes on. No matter what else happens, until God says its over, time goes on. And the New Year gives us hope. It gives us hope that this year will be better; that we'll start being the person we want to be, that we'll work harder and love sweeter than ever before.

For me, I got married and I moved twelve hours from home. I learned that it will always be home to me, though I may never live there again. I have gone from hating Oklahoma to being okay with it. I think this New Year has helped me to see once and for all that my life is here now; here in Tulsa, with Etienne. Tulsa may not be my favorite place in the world, but being by Etienne's side is. And wherever we may go, wherever life takes us, if it's with him, then I'm home. So for me, I'm going to start keeping the house a little cleaner, watch a little less television, work a little harder, study a little longer, and pray a lot more. I'm going to be the person I need to be. A Christian soldier for God, a homemaker and best friend for Etienne, and a friend who is there at the drop of a hat for anyone who needs me.

I hope and pray that this year is full of blessings and successes in your lives, and that at the end of it, as we say goodbye to 2013 and welcome 2014, you look back with a smile and see a year of life you can be proud of. 12 months, 365 days, and each one so precious. Don't take a single moment for granted!

All my love,
Elizabeth